Unpacking Old Patterns, Embracing New Beginnings

Letter to Seekers of Self

I’ll admit it: I’m hard on myself. Grace and patience? I give those freely to others. But for me? Not so much. I should have known better, done better, been better. Maybe some of you fellow adventurers can relate. There’s this relentless cycle of “never enough” that feels so familiar, hovering around me like a bee circling a springtime bloom. My inner critic whispers that I could always be more, do more, achieve more. But lately, I’ve been asking myself: where has this constant self-critique actually gotten me?

These patterns, though familiar and almost instinctual by now, keep true peace and joy at a distance—not just for myself, but for everyone I’m blessed to encounter. As I dig deeper into breaking and understanding these cycles, a Bible verse has resonated with me:

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.” – Matthew 7:7-8

So here I am, asking for clarity. For understanding. For the wisdom to uncover these deeper, hidden parts of myself.

I thank God for shedding light on the patterns that cling to my well-being like stubborn ivy, and I pray for strength and discernment to release what no longer serves me, making space for grace and self-compassion to finally take root.