Rebirth Is Messy—and I’m Doing It Anyway

Jun 13, 2025

Dear Adventurers,

There’s this part of me still clinging—
to ideas, beliefs, identities, comfort.
But if I’m honest with myself,
I know it’s time to let go.

To create the life I long for,
there must be space.
And right now, I’m still filled with remnants of the old.

We hold ourselves back energetically
when we try to carry the past into the future—
when we want the new
but won’t release the old.

But the old doesn’t vibrate with rebirth.
It can’t come with me.

Sahara spoke of the Vedic goddess of destruction and rebirth—
and I saw myself in the flames.
Not a punishment.
A clearing.
A sacred undoing.

So I whisper to the Universe, even with trembling hands:
Burn it down.

Burn the limiting beliefs.
Burn the self-doubt.
Burn the fear.
Burn the programming that no longer serves who I am becoming.

Clear it all, so the dreams in my heart
—the ones that make me smile just thinking of them—
finally have room to grow.

And still, anxiety rises
when I ask that simple question:
How?

How do I become her?
How do I get there?
How do I know it will all be okay?

But maybe how isn’t the question I need.
Maybe the path doesn’t begin with a plan.

To embrace the unknown,
I must release the need to know.
Let go of the urgency to figure it all out.
Detach from the outcome.

Instead, I choose to be with the unknown.
To sit beside it.
Invite it in.
Be curious, not demanding.
Gentle, not forceful.

To embrace the unknown is to find peace in its presence.
And I trust—
in that stillness,
in that surrender—
I will find myself.

Yours in Divine Chaos,

Jae

Sometimes the path forward isn't found—it's made, one brave surrender at a time. Trust that letting go isn’t loss; it’s the first act of becoming.